Seattle

Hello ALL! I know it has been a wild month for me, and posting just hasn't been something I have had time for unfortunately. I get to work and typically can take a few minutes to type this out first thing, but that time hasn't existed lately. I have had 5 tradeshows (I am in charge of them at my company) this month and October and November have just been insane. Especially since we just redesigned our booths and everything in them. Well I am in Seattle right now for one of them that starts tomorrow. I have to set-up the booth later today. PS - It's FREEZING here! haha! I am such a Florida girl. :)

Anyway, my body is all kinds of screwed up time wise, it has no idea which way is up! 2 weekends ago was the time change, last weekend I went to Central time, then back to Eastern for a day and half and now I am on Pacific time. I woke up this morning at 5:30am, 8:30am my time and couldn't fall back asleep. I layed there and I think drifted a bit but at 6:10am when my alarm was set to go work out, yes I know I am soo proud, I got right up, changed and went downstairs to the fitness center at my hotel. 1st day and I have started this trip off right! YAY ME! I got onto the ellipitcal for 30 minutes. Nothing fancy or crazy, jsut solid for 30 minutes. I went 2.6 miles and burned 215 calories. Nothing really too be all proud of, but the act alone is what I am proud of personally! I haven't worked out in sooo long and I come all the way to Seattle and I make myself. I brought enough workout clothes to work out every morning (except the one that I leave), so that is 4 work outs. I am not looking for anything crazy, just get up and move before the day starts. Later today will also be a work out, as I will be setting up a booth and working hard. Not to mention I will be walking a lot I am sure. Hopefully this trip will spring me back into getting in the mood and motivation to get going again.

The other thing I am looking foward to is eating fabulous seafood while I am here. Fish is soo good for you so that is a plus too. I haven't been bad lately, but I know I sure could be A LOT better than I have been. Witrh the holidays around the corner I HAVE to get back to being good again!!!

Well, as you can see this is coming late, I am 3 hours behind from where I am use to. Plus this week/month is crazy! I will post as much as I can but I can't promise every day. It is just not feasible right now.

Have a great day!!!

Life needs to SLOW DOWN!

It seems like my life lately has just been going crazy fast and been crazy busy! Yesterday was another no go on working out. It was Tuesday so I typically work out 4-5pm. Ya 4pm came and I knew there was no way that I could make that happen. In fact I was at work until 6:30pm. At that point too there were things I HAD to get done and didn't have a choice to work out.

This morning I thought I would get up early and go for a walk. Ya I have just been too tired and decided to sleep the extra hour and not make myelf sick because I am soo tired! With the next weeks I have coming up I can't afford to get sick. Today it won't happen as I have lunch with my Mentor and then I am going to dinner with a great friend I haven't seen in a bit. Maybe tomorrow?!

At least I am eating well right now!!! :) Gotta love the small victories!

Well off to the warehouse to pack for a tradeshow. I will be walking and on my feet all day so that's WAY more than normal so that's a plus for me. YAY! :) haha!

BTW I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEKEND - BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING TO THE MAN SHE HAS LOVED FOR 10 YEARS!!!

Have a great Hump Day!

Redirecting Motivation

Well I didn't start the week off well again. Seems to be a pattern lately. I didn't work out. Lunch came and I had a lot to do. 11:30 went by, then noon, and by 12:20 my stomach was yelling at me to feed it. I chose not to work out and told myself I would go to the YMCA after work since I am paying for it and not using it. Ya that didn't happen either. I had 2 errands to run after work and decided to add a third once I was out. By the time I was done it was 6:45pm and again my stomach was yelling at me. I at least did something good, I had dinner ready at home to be cooked and kept to that instead of stopping somewhere to pick something up, which I highly considered. It was a healthy meal too; grilled chicken breast, steamed broccoli and 1/2 a sweet potato. The other reason I couldn't go to the YMCA is that I left my gym bag at work. Okay that is another excuse, those are the running shoes I prefer but I have a back-up older pair at home I could have used. The problem is coming home and then going back out. Anyone who has tried that knows that that is almost an impossible task.

I have to stop convincing myself that it is okay to not work out. I'm not saying that I HAVE to work out, but it's also not okay to not work out. I need a happy medium and that is where I am struggling. I need to find a place where I am happy working out. Honestly it is the hurdle of getting back into it that I need to overcome. That is one of the hardest things to do, start up again. Once I get back into it I am confident I will get going again, I did it once before. The problem is getting there again. I need to just decide to do it and do it. BLAH! I also need to find the mind set again because I have lost it. :(  I will find it again, I know I will because I do want it. I just need to focus on that and feed off of it. Easier said than done is the problem.

After talking with my boyfriend last night, nothing special just our daily chat at night, I  realized that I let it get to me a bit too much Sunday night, being sad he left. I know everything will be fine, it's just that I wish I didn't have to miss him, that's really about it. I also know that I have let this take over other parts of my life lately too. I realized that yesterday and I really need to stop that. I have decided to take this as a challenge! I will see him in a month and then another 3 weeks after that - Can I get him to ask "How much have you lost? You look great!" haha! My goal is 155 lbs by the end of the year, it's definitely possible I just need the motivation so I am hoping that if I redirect my wallows into something positive it can work in advantage. Worth a try right?!!!

I'm Still Here...

Hello! I wanted to let you all know I am still here! Last week was hands down one of the craziest weeks of my work life. I somehow managed to get everything done but I am not sure how. I would get to the office and by 8am hit the ground running full speed. I really missed writing my blogs but there were more important things to get done. As you can imagine I didn't have time to work out a lick last week, and I was also bad about my eating. I really need to get back onto MFP. I have been slacking big time and I know it helps because it has been for a while now. BLAH!

This weekend though is what got me through last week. My boyfriend came up for the weekend and we got to spend it together. We went to a wedding for an old friend of his that was great. I have never seen him all dressed up like that before and he looked so handsome. I got to get all pretty and dressed up too which is fun! :) I wore this black lacey dress that I have had for a long time, and it was a tad big but still looked great. The way is falls on you I could get away with it a tad big. I couldn't believe it because it has never fit like that before and I seriously bought it like 3 years ago, maybe more! :) YAY!!

However, as slow as the weekend took to get here, it FLEW BY once it did come. Yesterday afternoon he had to leave to head back to Charlotte and I really got upset. Definitely more than I ever had. I won't see him until Dec. 3rd and it is only for an hour, hour and half at the Charlotte Airport. I happen to have a layover there and he is going to come see me. Unfortunately we have to go a month without seeing each other in person for only a hour, hour and half time frame to look forward to. Hey it's better than nothing! I am traveling literally all of November so seeing each other literally isn't an option. Then after that I won't see him till Christmas, as he is coming to my parent's house to spend Christmas with us. That's 7 weeks away!! Then I will go to his place in Charlotte for New Year’s so it is 8 weeks until we get to have just "us time"! :( Realizing all of this really upset me and made me sad. Just typing it makes my eyes swell again. I kinda let myself just wallow in my sadness a tad too much. I decided that I wanted comfort food and heated up a pizza in the oven and poured myself a tall frosty beer. I love pepperoni DiGiornos and heated it up, however I ate 5 of the 8 pieces! I started off with 3 but kept going back for another slice 2 separate times. I actually got up for a 6th piece but instead wrapped the 3 remaining pieces in threw them in the fridge. This morning I hopped on the scale and surprise surprise I gained weight! BLAH!

I hate that I did that! I haven't let myself eat myself to feeling better in a long time and I just let it get to me too much. This morning I woke up and told myself that wasn't acceptable and as much as I don't feel like working out at lunch I am going to make myself today! I can't let myself think that is okay. Everyone makes slips and that was my first big one in a long time. I mean we aren't all perfect, it just realizing and acknowledging that we made a mistake, a slip up and moving forwad from it. That's what I have to do and am going to do.

PS - Sister if you read this, those 3 pieces of pizza are all yours! :)